That's It Y'all

After 17 long years of schooling and edumacating, I can finally say that I’m done

With school that is.

I can’t fully fathom how fast everything went. Although, I must admit, there were moments in my post-secondary life where I felt like it never ended (writing instrumentation reports and marketing papers, dealing with Philosophy...), in the grand scheme of things however, everything was relatively short. Every time I pull out a memory in memory-bank and replay the whole thing in my head, it feels like they’re only a second long - as if a time limit of a second has been set for each memory.

Wouldn’t it be nice to hop on a DeLorean and go back in time to relive your favourite moments once “real-time”? It would, wouldn’t it? Yeah, life ain’t that easy, or fun. I figured that out a while ago. That’s why I’ve set up this blog to document my journey as an undergrad. That way, I can easily go back to whichever entry I desire and sort of relive the moment. Even though this alternative requires intensive reading and full use of one’s imagination (due to the lack of visuals), it is the next best thing to a time machine.

On a similar note, I think it’s time to start a new blog. I have had this blog for four years now. 1979 was wholly dedicated to archiving my undergrad memories and it was great to have during those years. But now, as I embark on a new journey, I feel like it’s also time to create a new “time-machine”.

We’ll see.

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23 June, 2009 | Dee said something at 11:35 AM | 2 whined

An Update, F'real

I haven't been here in a while. A lot of things had actually occurred during my hiatus. Things that I may or may not cover here. Why? Because I'm lazy. That, or I’ve forgotten the actual events.

Anyway, here's to documenting whatever it is I remember.

So after school ended, I scored three weeks off of complete nothingness, two of which I wasted in front of a computer...which, then, resulted in some serious damage to my bank account (I will get to this later). The last week of my break, however, was a lot more exciting. A. WHOLE. LOT. MORE.

Rule of thumb: Do not put Denise in front of a computer with nothing else to do for more than a week, otherwise, she’ll start to spend “moniez she ain't got”, and buy things “she don’t want!”

Ok, so this is what I did: I bought a bag. A 300 dollar bag! Which ended up costing $418 because stupid customs decided to open my package, concluded that I was ballin’ and charged me an extra $118! @#$%^&SHDKJ! You're probably wondering, "why in the world would Denise buy such an expensive bag?" Well, L'oreal said it best, "because I'm worth it."

Actually, after that purchase, I'm pretty sure I'm completely worthless now. I know.

I bought the bag because I wanted to treat myself. After four years of undergrad studies, and a total of 17 years of schooling, I felt that a fancy gift was more than necessary. Well, it was necessary up to the point where customs decided that it was an ethical move to bust a cap in my arse.

So note to self: Don’t spend that much money on eBay.

Note to customs: I'M ACTUALLY POOR!

Note to people around me: Do not put Denise in front of a computer with nothing else to do for more than a week, otherwise, she’ll start to spend “moniez she ain't got”, and buy things “she don’t want!”

I spent my last week of absolute freedom in NYC! What better way, really? M was generous enough to let us stay at her Brooklyn pad for four nights, and be our tour guide for three days, while being completely awesome and wikkid cool about everything! Thanks dude!

In a nutshell, my trip was beyond awesome! I loved every single second of it. It was a trip so well worth every penny I spent on it (which was not a lot by the way). I think I spent a total of just over 300 bucks on my trip (this includes my ticket, food and gifts/souvenirs). I know!!!

One of the moments that really made my trip was this.

At this very moment, I am typing this blog entry cause I have nothing else to do and I want to look busy. Other than that it’s been pretty good. The people here are nice and although we’re not that busy yet, people do find the time to train me on things and I feel like this method of training, although unconventional, is working for me. I’m able to soak everything that comes my way, which is always a good thing.

I met up with T and T a couple of Saturdays ago to participate in Toronto's DOTO event. It was wikkid, except I had to go home early because I had to deal with the evil group known as "customs" to get my bag.

So I met up with A, A, T and T (yeah, those letters mean nothing to strangers) last Friday night and we had a jolly good time at Duke of Devon! The weather was perfect! T suggested that we have our dinner in a patio setting (good call). We were able to score a table after the “happy hour gang” started to dissolve...

It was awesome to see people, eat good food and enjoy the weather! It was perfection. I think if Monet was alive today, he'd paint us...ahaha.

Ok that's it for now. Next time, I promise, it'll be shorter.

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03 June, 2009 | Dee said something at 8:29 PM | 0 whined

New Chapter

April 2009: Last Month of School (EVER)

School has finally come to an end...a bittersweet end. I know that I've complained a lot about school and how I wanted it to be over so bad. Now that school's actually dunzo, I'm really scared and sad.

I'm mostly scared about the new venture that I have to partake in, and I'm sad about the life and the routine that I have to let go in order to accommodate this new venture. I have to once again start from scratch: new routine, new environment, new friends, new life.

Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to tackle all these challenges, but I'm really going to miss student life. As hard as it was for me, this "student life" really provided me with the best memories ever. I suppose it's fair enough to say that I'm not going to miss the schooling, but I am going to miss seeing my friends everyday, talking to my professors and walking with careless abandon around Toronto. I thought I wasn't going to get all sentimental, but I realized that, "it's really over."

Those four years felt like four minutes. Just like that, a new chapter begins.

I start work in a couple of weeks! I'm heading to NYC next week to make the best of my summer vacation (all two weeks of it). I'm excited to go to work and to actually work. I think I'll be fine. Time to move on and make new memories.


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04 May, 2009 | Dee said something at 10:41 PM | 0 whined

Decisions, Decisions

Art: Where do you see yourself in five years?
Me: Living a mediocre life and being happy about it.

Four years ago, when I was still trying to get into my program, one of my professors asked me during my interview where I saw myself in five years. I simply told him that I was bound to live a mediocre life and that I'd be cool with that...Some people are meant to be rich and miserable, some people are meant to have it all, and some are meant to be wikkid awesome but poor.

Well, I'm ok with being wikkid awesome, in spite of the poorness.

It has been a pretty rough week for me. I was offered two jobs and I had no idea which one to choose (I know, this situation is quite the rarity considering the economic mess we're in). I felt like my life depended on the decision I was going to make. Well, yeah, it kind of did. I even got my friends involved in order to help me decide. Also, it was really difficult comparing the two considering that both offers were coming from two different industries: printing and advertising. Apples and oranges. It was either: take this route or the other.

Denise Signs her Life Away?

In the end, I chose the lower paying job, with a pretty disappointing benefits plan - advertising. It really came down to who I wanted to work with and for. Personal values took paramount over money and perks. I made the right decision, for sure. Had I taken the other job, I would have been miserable, and would have probably been out looking for another job in the next three months (if I even survive that long).

When I was rejecting the other offer, the head honcho there pretty much said that I didn't think this through and that I was probably making the poorest decision of my life (Didn't think things through? This situation burdened me for a week!). He also said that I could have been ballin'. Yeah, cause I look like I'm all about money! Pfft. Puh-lease.

After that insult, it just further confirmed that I made the right decision. That was very unprofessional and disrespectful. My goodness. What happened to, "I wish you all the best and keep in touch"? Dang!

So yeah, I made the right decision. Mediocre life, here I come.

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28 April, 2009 | Dee said something at 9:44 AM | 0 whined

It's Almost Over

Four years of university...

Four years is a long time, but I don't seem to remember anything significant. I don't exactly know what school did to me, but whatever it is, I feel so untalented now. I think I was in the wrong program. I threw myself in this corporate pool and I swam with the corporate zombies.

I'm a modern day hippie who got on the wrong train.

I attended my last lecture ever on the 14th of April. I tried to convince myself that that day was something special. It was supposed to be an emotional day, I was supposed to be an emotional wreck - I felt nothing, really. Then I realized, "Wow, I'm in debt." Finally, I felt something - completely horrified!

Not really, I'm just being dramatic. If I get a job, IF, I will try to pay the government off within 1-2 years. I want to move on with my life and not drag this with me for nine years or even ten years. Most of my buddies have paid off their debt, but then again, they're either a) ballin' b) really good with managing money c) they have no family to support or d) all of the above.

I'm e) none of the above.

That's life.

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16 April, 2009 | Dee said something at 10:28 AM | 0 whined


I finally came home from New Orleans last Friday at around 7:30 pm. And oh-my-gosh, to be able to see my room, lie down on the couch like a hobo and get full control of my TV's fate is like the most liberating thing ever. E-v-e-r.

My trip to New Orleans, in a nutshell, was just a big blur. I know I make it sound like I was at Bourbon Street every single day, getting hammered and partying it up like normal tourists do. But, I mainly just took naps and occasionally cried about being internet-deprived.

It was a fun/depressing trip - that's sort of oxymoronic, but I don't know how else to describe it. It was fun in a sense that, "wow, I'm in New Orleans and yeah this is fun," and obviously depressing because you can so tell that the New Orleanians were still affected by the whole Katrina ordeal. I saw so many abandoned buildings and buildings that were just falling apart. The city is still recovering and still rebuilding. The only people that were having a good time there were the tourists. That's because they were either getting drunk on Bourbon Street, or getting drunk elsewhere. Seriously, that's the extent of their happiness. Pretty depressing and shallow if you ask me.

I also felt no personal attachment to the city when I left, or even when I was there. I don't miss it at all. I woke up this morning and I felt like I never left home. My stay there was like a really long, exhausting dream. Don't get me wrong, I liked New Orleans, I just didn't love it. I seriously spent most of my time in my hotel room or in a conference hall. And when I did find the time to go out, it was either too dark, too wet or too dangerous to do stuff...So I just stayed inside my hotel room and watched some Fresh Prince of Bel-Air reruns (just a girl getting her money's worth).

On the contrary, my first night and my last two days at N'awlins were pretty good. The weather was wonderful and I got to do some sightseeing. I went everywhere with a couple of friends: Uptown, Downtown, Art District, Central Business District, Garden District and the French Quarter. A whole lot of walking! I couldn't feel my legs after that whole venture. I also loved the food - not over-hyped at all! The Jambalaya was beyond awesomeness, the beignets were just yummy and the red beans and rice with smoked sausage was too cool for school! I'd go back to N'awlins for the food. Yeah, that's about it.

The other four days were really brutal - like borderline inhumane brutal. Heh, what can ya do? It was a semi-business trip after all, and not a real vacation. I had to sit and listen (well, pretending to anyway) to the speakers at the conference. I had no idea what they were talking about, and I honestly didn't care. I know, I've got the apathy glow. The whole conference dealio was just bland, boring and bogus. The conference had more student attendees than the actual members, so that says a lot about the support (or lack thereof) this conference is getting from the industry. I understand that everyone's going through this economic madness but if you have more students than actual members...the problem goes beyond the economic condition. I don't know, I could be wrong. I'm real bitter right now.

Oh yeah, we lost by the way. I'm not bitter about that. I predicted it, I called it and people just refused to believe my prophetic claim. I was so prepared for losing that I became the happiest loser there.

Considering that my prediction about us losing came true, I feel like a winner. Oh, and I also met Kaba Modern!!! Winner.

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22 March, 2009 | Dee said something at 12:26 AM | 1 whined

New Orleans, Here I Come

After all the madness and sadness, I can finally somewhat relax now. I will be heading down to "The Big Easy" tomorrow morning and will be arriving at around 8:30 pm. The purpose of this trip is to represent my school (more specifically ryeTAGA) at the 2009 TAGA Conference. Um, sure.

My purpose, however, is to just sit back, relax and eat good N'awlins food! Really.

I don't believe that our journal is going to win anyway. Why? Because it's messed up. If it were a person, it'd be bi-polar - that's how whack it is! I know, I'm the meanest person ever. But seriously, there is no consistency in the design, no real group effort, and no fun...

So, whatever. At least I get to go to New Orleans. School paid for my ticket, yeah...awesome.

(Perchance we do win the competition, which is very unlikely, I will apologize and just go through some sort of cleansing so that all the mean bones in my body won't be mean anymore.)

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12 March, 2009 | Dee said something at 11:18 PM | 3 whined

Choosing Electives - I Suck at it!

I am taking a class that bashes the existence of God and everything I stand for. I love God and I won't pretend that I don't believe in Him in order to get a decent mark in that class. I'd rather get a D than to deny my faith, thank you very much.

However, I must admit that I'm living the remaining days of my university career feeling conflicted and burdened. I can't write my paper - I can't even start it! I'm thinking, "there's gotta be an easier way!" But there seems to be no other way! I just simply hate this course. My only motivation is to pass it. I can't even promise myself that.

This has got to be the most difficult class I have ever taken. More painful than ACC 406 unfortunately. It takes pain to a whole new level.

Moral dilemma.

I just can't write this paper...

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09 March, 2009 | Dee said something at 11:25 PM | 1 whined

11:28 am

That's the time I woke up today. I rarely sleep in. I don't like it. If I wake up after 9:00 am, I automatically feel gross. Yes, I feel gross right now. Waking up late means I just wasted half of the day sleeping, and when that happens, you know it's downhill from there. Well, at least I know.

I have quite the list today. My priority is to get my website/portfolio site and my resumé done by the end of this weekend. I don't exactly know why I bought a site. I'm also not really committed to finishing this site either. Oh, it's also not necessary for me to have a, I'm a glutton for punishment. Shucks.

I just want the school year to be over.

Hm, I think that's going to be my mantra from now until the school year actually ends.

"I just want the school year to be over x10"

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28 February, 2009 | Dee said something at 1:37 PM | 1 whined

Reading Week or Hell Week?

My last reading week has come to an end. How did I spend that? Reading of course, and working...on everything: TAGA, schoolwork, designing websites, updating my resume, "networking" - everything.

So now...

I'm tired.
I'm stressed.
I need a real break.
I want to cry.
I want to scream.
I want to do everything in between.

A breakdown will be nice, indeed.

I will have a new layout soon (finally, after almost two years). Possibly by mid-late March. It's 89.69780% completed. I just need to find the time to upload it.

Oh, I watched the Oscars last night. That was pretty good. Way better than last year's joke of a show. Still predictable though. That's all I have to say about that.

Message to MO:
Thanks man! Oh, and I've always wondered...what's your website? You never told me.

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23 February, 2009 | Dee said something at 11:02 PM | 2 whined

Being and Nothingness

I’m a glutton for punishment – prolonging my agony. Why can’t I just power-through this philosophy paper and get it over with?


What a drag, what a drug.
When did I get hooked on this monster?

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13 February, 2009 | Dee said something at 1:45 AM | 0 whined

Today, I:

  • Woke up at 8:55 am, only to realize that going to school today was not an option (simply because I did not want to).
  • Realized how lazy and jaded I have become. I am so over school, you have no idea. I can't walk the streets of Toronto and fake that I appreciate the "schooling" I get there, because I don't. After four years of schooling, all I have waiting for me at the end of the rainbow is recession, and lots of it.
  • Was planning to start (and possibly finish) my first expository paper for PHL 605: Exitensialism (I know, what in jumping jelly beans is that? I have no idea. I don't even know if I spelt it right...and I am not even going to honor that course by verying with if I spelt the course name right. Whatevs).
  • Have not started that at all.
  • Planned on cleaning my room.
  • Have not done that at all.
  • Planned on contacting people for TAGA.
  • Do not want to do that at all.
  • Did not get the charger I ordered online for Charlie (my Macbook, and yes I name my gadgets).
  • Got an iPod nano Gen 4 instead (big-ups to mom and pops for donating the airmile points that they have been collecting since 1999 to this sad case called, "Denise").
  • Still have three hours to do something significant that would make me feel accomplished.
  • Probably won't do anything.

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26 January, 2009 | Dee said something at 7:14 PM | 0 whined

I do not understand the concept of time...

The cold truth about time being perishable hasn't really hit me yet. You'd think, for a girl who'd seen Back to the Future I, II and III at least six times each, would have mastered the concept of time...

Yeah. Right.

How sad. I can sense Marty McFly crying in his DeLorean right now and cursing my name. I've failed him miserably.

I make the same mistake every year. Instead of using my study time to actually study, I use it to watch shows, to knit, to do anything but study.

A breakdown of how I wasted four potential studying days is shown below in order to demonstrate my poor time-management skills

Friday: I went somewhere and I ate something.
Saturday: Ummm...Clearly, I don't remember.
Sunday: Church --- o.k. valid excuse for the first half of the day. The other

Monday: Watched the second season of Friends. How impressively productive. I'm so proud of how lazy and unmotivated I've become.

I need help. There's got to be some sort of rehabilitation facility for this kind of thing.

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01 December, 2008 | Dee said something at 8:14 PM | 1 whined

Down to the last few days...

Semester número uno por el año is coming to a bittersweet end. It really flew by so fast. I felt like I time traveled, but my hair begs to differ. I look at it in the mirror and it tells me, "no Denise, you didn't hop on a DeLorean with a Flux Capacitor and missed three months of your life!"

I need a haircut.

I know I laugh a lot but it's been awhile since I felt genuinely happy about life. No, I'm not an emo and I don't want to kill myself. This world needs my randomness. I'm just merely bored and I need something new and exciting in my life.

California, will you do it for me? I'll see on the 29th of December. Aight?

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26 November, 2008 | Dee said something at 7:58 PM | 0 whined

Ok, I Lied...

So I went to Salad King before Hell Month ended.
My stomach wasn't too happy though because the portion got smaller.Why SK? Why? I am not going to ask for my money back, but I am going to ask for an extra cup of pad thai the next time I'm around. Got that?

Anyway, JDF should be a bad word. A very bad, filthy, dirty, disgusting, degrading, despicable word.

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15 November, 2008 | Dee said something at 8:21 PM | 0 whined

Current State

i will go to salad king and make my stomach happy once i get
through hell month.

oh, obama, congrats and enjoy your new crib.

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05 November, 2008 | Dee said something at 7:29 PM | 0 whined

Summer 2008

The last four months flew by so fast...I didn't even post anything here. I feel really guilty for sorta abandoning this blog. It's already September. That's insane in the membrane. Too crazy.

Anyway, I have been incredibly busy and I wish I had more time off. Work and summer school got the best of me, but also brought the worst of me out. A dosage of Back to the Future would have been would certainly reassure me of my sanity. I don't even have time to have such marathon. Don't worry Michael J. Fox, I will have time for you.

In spite of the "hecticness", I have to say, this summer has got to be the best summer...ever. Why? Well, I'll tell you why:
  • Got to see Radiohead live! OMGOMGOMG.
  • The annual church retreat to Minden, Ontario was a great success
  • Went horseback riding...finally!
  • Donated my hair to Angel Hair Foundation
  • Got a new camera (just a point and shoot, I'll get my DSLR later...I hope)
  • I was able to hang out and see a lot of my old buddies
  • eBay, eBay, eBay
  • Although work was pretty draining, it was a lovely experience nevertheless
If that's not an accomplished looking list, then I don't know what is. I will post lots of pictures later, and perhaps some short clips from the Radiohead concert.

Also, this's like the epitome of "old skul"! Definitely needs some work here.

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01 September, 2008 | Dee said something at 8:37 PM | 0 whined

It's About Time...

I haven't blogged this whole year...I have been sooo busy with school. I think third year, second semester has got to be the busiest semester I've ever had in my life. So busy, I couldn't even find the time to blog and complain about so many things...

Last Thursday was actually my last day of third year, and tomorrow, I'm going to be writing my first final exam. Exciting! It's going to be an essay type exam and the course is Politics. Ugh. Just reading the word "politics" makes me cringe. The only reason why I took the course was to...Actually, I don't even know why I took it.

But one thing has been clear to me this whole semester, and that is the graciousness of God. Last month, my program held its annual job fair at my school. There were 50 something companies that showed up, and there were 89 third year students who were (and some are still) in dire need of an internship placement this summer in order to graduate. It was a pretty stressful event. I just prayed to God to just help me get through job fair without making a fool of myself in front of the employers. I also prayed for my top choices of course, and I fully committed these needs to God. You know what? He answered.

I was able to score two second interviews with my top two choices, and was offered a job from both places! It's times like these were it's just so difficult to deny God and his works. He's truly the great provider. All we need to do is ask, and be specific about it. And if it's His will, it will be given to you.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that. Hopefully once the finals are over, I'll be able to blog more often and also be able to revamp this site. I need to get back to web-designing. For real!

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13 April, 2008 | Dee said something at 2:40 PM | 0 whined


I'm so uninspired at the moment. It sucks. I really want to change the layout of this site, but my mind is absolutely blank. I did, however, managed to create a few layout designs, but I got bored of them right away. Besides, how can I create something meaningful and pleasing to the eye when my mind is somewhere else.

I need a vacation. I want to go somewhere peaceful. I just want to be alone. I want people to stop harassing me. I want school to stop making me poor. I just want to breathe freely again. That's all I want. Too bad for me, that's never going to happen.

Anyway, second year is over, but I'm taking summer school right now because I didn't take a course during the school year, and I pulled a Kamikaze on one of my exams. Yeah, I had a breakdown and didn't even write an exam. It was no typical episode though: I didn't scream, cry or kick a wall. I froze.

So that's my far, and I hope to God it changes.

Oh, Grey's Anatomy season finale was bad. I hated it. Everything I didn't want to happen, happened. The second part of season 3 was horrible. Time to watch some old school Grey's so that I may actually "relike" the show. On a brighter note, Ugly Betty's season finale was pretty good. Cute, sad and funny.

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18 May, 2007 | Dee said something at 12:50 AM | 3 whined

Oh School...

How dare you kidnap me? Not cool. Not cool at all.


02 May, 2007 | Dee said something at 3:52 PM | 1 whined


Last weekend, I went camping up in northern Ontario where the snow was fresh, white and perfect. Nature was also in a good mood and blessed the campsite with such a wonderful weather.

But then, I got sick.

I think I got too excited with the snow cause I jumped right in there. My childishness took a toll on my health, but wadahey, it was worth it.

However, I do somewhat resent the fact that I had to miss a week of school. Did I miss a lot? Yes. A whole lot. Now, it's catch up time.

I'm feeling sick again.

OT: Making a new layout =) Super fun.

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12 March, 2007 | Dee said something at 8:06 PM | 3 whined

Registration Code

Registration Code, originally uploaded by Crabalocker.

SO this registration code for my accounting course would cost $60.00 if bought separately from the accounting textbook.

For 12 numbers...60 bucks?

That's like $5.00 per figure. That's insane.

Sometimes, I even wonder why I have accounting when I'm a media student.

The mysteries of post-secondary education.

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13 January, 2007 | Dee said something at 12:57 PM | 3 whined

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