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Failure
I never considered myself as a risk-taker. I always carry the fear that failure is very possible. I hate failing, and who doesn't? It's as painful as a two-edged sword up your arse. I, like many people, play the game the safe way. I never expect too much from something or someone, it’s not healthy. Only crazy, obsessed, irrational and psychotic dimwits do that.
However, I do find it extremely difficult to move on because…well, seeing how I hate to fail, I don’t move at all. I am often labeled as a perfectionist, and that also links to me being labeled as a coward. I would only work or pursue something when I know the outcome is good, and/or possibly perfect. I’m quite selective of the projects I work on, the guys I like, or the people I want to befriend. So selective, that I have become quite the crazy, obsessed, irrational, and psychotic dimwit I very loathed.
I wish to take more risks, but that’s not part of the secret 11 herbs and spices that creates me. Although, I must brag about the time I gambled my life when I rode the Mighty Canadian Minebuster, Canada’s only roller coaster made out of decaying toothpicks.
Anyway, people tell me that the incompetence to try or to take risk is failure already. People, I’d rather skip a test and fail that way, than write knowing that I'm going to fail anyway. I’d rather save myself some time and energy, than waste it on a test with such a predictable and an unfortunate result. Thank you very much.
However, I do find it extremely difficult to move on because…well, seeing how I hate to fail, I don’t move at all. I am often labeled as a perfectionist, and that also links to me being labeled as a coward. I would only work or pursue something when I know the outcome is good, and/or possibly perfect. I’m quite selective of the projects I work on, the guys I like, or the people I want to befriend. So selective, that I have become quite the crazy, obsessed, irrational, and psychotic dimwit I very loathed.
I wish to take more risks, but that’s not part of the secret 11 herbs and spices that creates me. Although, I must brag about the time I gambled my life when I rode the Mighty Canadian Minebuster, Canada’s only roller coaster made out of decaying toothpicks.
Anyway, people tell me that the incompetence to try or to take risk is failure already. People, I’d rather skip a test and fail that way, than write knowing that I'm going to fail anyway. I’d rather save myself some time and energy, than waste it on a test with such a predictable and an unfortunate result. Thank you very much.
27 August, 2005 | Dee said something at 11:30 PM